THE TRUTH

Since my first period, the only lullaby my ears fell asleep to were all the talks about being a virgin, getting married and pleasing my husband. Nothing else ever mattered to me because I laid my bed on that foundation.

I saw the emptiness that swallowed me whole when there was no boy to text, call, write poems about or imagine while I sing to all the romantic songs on my playlist. 

It is a sad and boring thing to have a life dependent on a relationship for happiness.

I do not seek to trample on the need for companionship, love and relationships. Humans were created with an insatiable desire for attention and love. It is expedient to not feel alone as a human, hence, the reason why we commune with others. It gives some sense of belonging and we all need that.

However, we do not need to be completely useless to ourselves or utterly devastated because no man or woman is available for midnight calls and mushy text messages.

Being alone is sometimes necessary for good cognitive health. Having a consciousness of self and developing the mind into a strong cord of positivity is important. It benches doubts and self-sabotage, which helps with making good decisions in life and being assertive about who you are and what you want out of life.

You have to love the heck out of yourself first before anyone else can.

Life doesn't exactly start or end with marital titles or the number of children a family gets to have or not. There is more to life.

Waiting to live life only as a married person is a tragedy.

There are places to visit, purposes to fulfil, money to make, lives to change and talents to explore. There is so much more in this breathing quaking space called life.

Please, with all the fibre and blood swimming in your body, live! Live life now.

Single and Searching

Bella knew it was time to go home but she waited a little more for someone, anyone at all, to make a move.

Then a male voice across the restaurant called out, "Hey girl!"

She froze and put on some hopeful smile before turning over to look at the caller.

He walked up slowly towards her direction smiling and walked right past her, hugging a lady sitting not too far from where she sat.

Bella choked on her saliva and coughed hard almost embarrassing herself. She felt really cold all of a sudden and goosebumps danced all over her skin.

Bella went home blue and battered. Echoes of her crying in her big room reverberated how lonely she felt at that moment.

Bella was 29 and single. It would have been a consolation if she probably just got out of a relationship or was crushing on someone.  But no, Bella had been single since her 25th birthday. 

She gave no care to relationships because of the experiences she had with men. It shut her mind totally off romantic relationships. All she did was work on her finances, career, and academic goals. 

Her 29th birthday came with several complaints than compliments from her family about marriage. She only realised how rusty she had become with socialising when she stepped out for a drink that evening.

Bella was lonely and it felt like all she had achieved while she was single meant nothing anymore.

Single, not cursed

There are lists of factors responsible for young adults of marriageable age being single. It is an extensive topic to buttress but I will water it down to two relatable reasons. We see dating sites doing the most and desperate women using diabolical means to get a man into marriage. But not everyone is desperate and bent on getting married. Either way, people get married or choose not to, for the wrong reasons.

We live in a society that recognizes marriage as a means to judge an individual's growth, influence, and 

status. Being single and satisfied is not enough, it is like living irresponsibly because marriage is believed to be a system that curtails a promiscuous lifestyle which brings me to my first point of why people choose to be single over getting married.

Fear of Commitment

"till death do us part" is a big deal because it carries the weight of so many expectations, commitments, and sacrifices not many of us are willing to fulfil. Instead of that, people choose to cohabit and move on when they get bored with continuing life with that same person. To them, "forever" is a long time to not try out new relationships. in some cases, the stress of resolving conflicts and letting go of ego or loving truly is not an option. the individuals involved are either not ready or mature enough to commit and be content with the decisions they make in choosing a partner.

Fear of not doing it right

it is not the idea of marriage that people are scared of but the possibility of having a broken home and subjecting their offspring to the trauma and trouble involved. so rather than get involved in the drama, they get into relationships that last only a couple of months or years without making it official. in a culture of distrust and divorce, the decision to get married becomes difficult.

How to know you are ready for a relationship

I cannot overemphasise the need for emotional and financial maturity. you do not need seven figures in your account before you get into a relationship but you should at least have something to sustain you. no matter how much a person claims to love you; when the bulk of finances is one-sided, it can be discouraging. especially if there is little or no effort from the other party to get something done. respect and reverence are thrown out the window and love follow.

Being emotionally mature explains the need for emotional intelligence with resolving and managing conflicts. it also involves being assertive about your personality and understanding how to communicate in different situations. The phase of being single is an opportunity to grow and develop yourself to be better. Love is a term people claim to know but fail to express properly because they do not realize that showing or giving love comes from knowing how to love yourself first. you cannot pour from an empty cup, also you cannot keep pouring all of you into an empty cup that doesn't ever get filled. 

To find a compatible partner, you have to be a compatible choice.